Cambio is afraiing.

Changing is the scariest thing on earth. People are afraid to go through they problems, that is exactly why issues exist, they are just there because everyone freak out about what it could produces in solving them. Some can say yes to it meanwhile others can totally create chaos around it. I am afraid of changing my life, actually I am afraid to chose what life I want to live because until now I didn't really had to chose. They told me you are going to school, you are going to study hard, to do sport, to play music and as I didn't know nothing about life, I just said "yes i guess". But now it's over and I am doing what I want to do. The thing is that I do not know nothing about it neigther and when I need people around me to help, they just disappear. So I am alone in my choice, this is scary. So I made a choice and obviously it is not the "right" one. But I don't care, I feel like this is what I want, and isn't this about the life ? Do whatever I feel good for me ? be cause in any case I will ever know me better than anyone else...I am such in a big no way to escape.